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baby love

Life has been fairly uneventful lately.  Saturday morning we finally went back up the temple.  It occurred to me that our baby is already sealed to us and s/he doesn't even have to be born.  I knew this, but it was a nice reminder of something I hadn't really thought about.  No matter what happens in this life we'll be together forever as long as we keep the commandments.  I remember when we were married in the same temple, I was just thinking about being with my husband for eternity, I hadn't really started thinking about our babies yet.

I feel so much love for this little one in my womb.  I have read many birth stories that talk about how as soon as the baby was born the mama felt a huge amount of love, so it has surprised me that this love and protection I feel for my baby has started before I have even seen him/her.  I would gladly give up any of my own comfort for this baby, even my life.  While I like to think I would give my life for someone else, I don't know if that would actually happen in most cases.  In the case of my baby it would be an easy choice. 

Yesterday I ran into a girl from church I hadn't talked to in awhile on the bus.  She had her baby last November so we had plenty to discuss.  Having a baby definitely unites people.  It's like you are finally introduced into this exclusive club that you never quite understood before.  Like rehashing mission stories.  People who have not served a mission can't ever really understand what it's like.  They might come really close, but it's not the same.  I assume fighting in a war is like that.  This strange bonding experience that others don't understand.  I'm sure there are lots of things like that. 

Anyway, pregnancy is one of those things.  Talking about the horrors of the first few months of pregnancy is therapeutic.  The nauseousness that feels like it will never end.  The dirty house.  Falling asleep at 7:00 pm.  I bet the trauma of actually having the baby will be an interesting topic of conversation for the future. 

Ever since I got pregnant I've felt very cut off from everyone.  I was too tired and sick to really do anything and now I've been so busy with nursery during church I have no time to talk to anyone.  I crave that interaction and I miss it so much.  I talk to people at work, but I'm not really friends with any of them and of course I have my husband who is without a doubt my best friend, but there's something about girl talk that I need.  It seems that this is a pretty general need amongst women.  I'm so happy that I'm feeling better now and actually want to get out of the house.  Once we have the baby it will probably be awhile before we get to do that again.
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